Once upon a time I was a daughter, a friend, a sister, a friend. Then one day, I had a child. I became a mother. Added to the list of things I previously was, I became a cook, a dresser, a wiper of dirty face, a cleaner of soiled diapers, a retriever of thrown toys n shoe(She keeps on throwin away her shoe n socks most of the time). With each passing day my talents grew and I could smile even when I dint want to....
Where once I used to do as I pleased, it now belonged to someone else. My hips now became the transporters of small bundle and my feet are now used to walk and dance to the rhythm of my Baby's laughter and fun, my arms now a cradle. my hearing became supersonic n my eyes microscope....
My mind which used to flourish with thoughts now became filled with irrational ideas:
- wht if she falls out of the cot?
- wht if she chokes on her foood?
- wht if I do or say a wrong thing?
- how wil I knw I am a goood or a bad mother?
When you came into this world, I thought I could mould you, shape you, teach you. Little did I know that I would be taught some important lessons about life as well.. You wake up every morning and the day seeems to stretch out before you with magical possibilities. You have no time to ponder over yesterday's tearful tantrums or fret about tomorrow's to-do's. Isnt there a lesson for me in this? I wonder, to celebrate the NOW instead of constantly looking over my shoulder at yesterday's follies or craning my neck towards tomorrow's troubles!!!
I have sat besides you and tried to look out at the world through your shiny, ever curious eyes. And let me tell you I have learned that life is not a nonstop treadmill to be filled with protective activities every minute of the day but a colorful pallete to paint the world with. Sometimes the laundry, the cleaning, the to-do list and the emails can wait. I've realised it is all right to waste a little time, to lie on our back and see the clouds in the sky above. Its all right to lie on your stomach side by side with your child ad loook down on tiny things be it sum dust particle or toy or bread crumps. My heart is fillled to the brim, bursting with devotion and love.... My life has changed, for goood, forever.....
You are and will always be my most precious treasure, my bigges achievement and my proudest legacy...............
